Seriously confused with everything/my life..?

wow :p first im sorry. that is so much to take in. i had to read it a couple times through. Have you shared you're complete thoughts with your sisters? because i really think if you sat down and had a long talk by the look of it they would under stand and know what your going through. how they should understand that you are trying to build a better future but are having a hard time with the present. if i were you i would sit down tell them how you know it would be hard that they would practically be supporting you. but tell them your building a better future and that your still going to look for jobs. i hope i understood right. if you need ymail me! i would be honored to read what you type!