HELP, have i had a nervous breakdown.. ? FAST REPLY PLEASE.?

You have a mental illness. It could be one of the personality disorders which can cause you severe depression when you're older. Like BPD hits people that come from dysfunctional families and stuff... Have disrupted family backgrounds.. That are negelcted during childhood or separated from their mothers. You seen the girl in the movie fatal attraction? Don't hesitate in checking with a mental health professional